Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Hospital and Respite

Hi Everyone

On Sunday night the voices came back with a vengeance. I spent all day in bed trying to fight them off - they wouldn't go and I was exhausted. I then spent Monday in bed and it just got worse. On Monday night I rang a friend and asked her to take me to hospital.

I was very, very sick but they had no beds in the psychiatric ward. I stayed overnight in the emergency department. The psychiatrist came in the morning and said there were still no beds so they gave me a sedative. I went to sleep and then the doctor said, because I went to sleep, that I could go home.

I didn't feel that going home was a good option so I rang my Case Manager and asked if I could go to Respite. Respite is a 'step down' from the hospital for people who are a bit unwell but can cope a little bit. They have nurses and a cook and cleaner but no doctors and you can go out if you want to.

I feel very settled in Respite but I have to go home tomorrow and am really scared about that. Please, please pray for me that I will cope and/or Respite will let me have a few more days.

God Bless



  1. Amber,
    Stay cool and take a good rest. I will pray for you that His grace will sustain and comfort you.

    God bless

  2. Bastard voices!
    Bastard psychiatrists!
    Bastard, lousy, healthcare system!

    God bless you, Amber.

  3. sounds really tough, hope you get the right treatment and feel better soon x

  4. Lots of prayers. May you be surrounded by God's loving presence.

  5. May the Lord protect you
    and guide you
    and give you peace.
    May he give you full,
    confident faith in him.
    May he give you wisdom and courage
    as you follow him.

    Hit the voices with truth:
    the sword of the Spirit,
    which is the word of God.
    and also simply ask the Lord to deal with them.

    Father, deal with those voices.
    Have mercy on Amber.
    She is weak, but you are strong.
    We bring her to you in the name of Jesus.
    Free her from the voices.
    Heal her.
    Glorify yourself through her.


    "Greater is he who is in you [the Holy Spirit] than he who is in the world." --1 John 4:4 b

    The LORD is my shepherd.
    I shall lack nothing.
    He makes me lie down in green pastures.
    He leads me beside the still waters.
    He restores my soul.
    Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
    I will fear no evil,
    For You are with me.
    Your rod and your staff--they comfort me.
    You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
    You anoint my head with oil.
    My cup runs over.
    Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,
    And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
    --Psalm 23

  6. Amber,
    I hope you will soon begin to feel better and that through this all you can feel God's gracious hand guiding you. I am so sorry to hear about what you are going through, but it is my hope that soon you will be well. God Bless you and may He keep you safe in his loving arms.

  7. Hi, I spent a day with this chap last year and found his story inspirational, I hope you may too. is a really useful resource.

    I wish you peace.

  8. I'm so sorry, Amber. I'm thinking of you and hoping you feel better soon and find the support you need.

  9. Amber ...

    I will pray to St. Joan to stand with you and grant you peace and rest. She will be with you and wrap her protection around you.

    Please hold on and know I have you in my thoughts and prayers.

  10. Thanks Everyone for your thoughts and prayers.

    I will try to visit your blogs after tea (including the new people). I am tired at the moment.

    One more day in respite then home tomorrow.

    Keep up the prayers.

    God Bless


  11. Ambersun, prayers that the voices go away and that you get the proper care.

  12. Praying for you Amber! Hang in there!
    God loves you very much.

  13. Dear one, you are always in my prayers. Take your time for your visits. Blessings and so much ((((safe hugs)))) to you !!